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刘华兄

2011-09-27T18:25:00.002+08:00

刘德华，
祝你生日快乐。

Olivia ... a goddess

2011-09-02T14:03:00.001+08:00

The picture shows just how elegant she is.
I have been listening to her songs for the past few months.
She has a voice of an angel.
The ability that she has is one which I can only express in sighs.

Soothing.
Lovely.
Peaceful.

If you have never heard of her.
Google or You Tube her name .... Olivia Ong.
You won't be disappointed.

简单的事...

2011-08-24T15:47:00.001+08:00

圆，

源，

缘。

:: Posted via my spiffy Galaxy S2 ::

One more thing ...

2011-08-22T21:16:00.002+08:00

Just like that.

:: Posted via my spiffy Galaxy S2 ::

不一样的心情...

2011-08-18T14:21:00.001+08:00

刚开始有点不习惯，但久了就不同。

我病了。

没声。

但却能部落格。

可能字眼会生疏了点，毕竟还能表达内心的意境。

不说了。

累了。

你也该休息了。

明天会更好地。

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What we do...

2011-08-17T09:44:00.001+08:00

The simple gist of it all is that we are what we do.

We do what we believe in.

And we believe in what we trust to be right.

That being said, what is right is one of a fluid definition. There are things that are clearly black and white. There are too places of shades in grey.

Of lately I have begun to learn how best to react to these murky waters. Have no idea if I will be wadding in them for how long. Or if I will ever be able to get out.

I can only trust God to pull me out of these messes again, which I often get into blindly.

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不是我讲的 ...

2011-08-16T19:14:00.000+08:00

汗都流亁,
天都微亮,
然後怎樣...

Is your galaxy round?

2011-07-26T11:58:00.001+08:00

It seems that they are some galaxies out there that is not flat like the milky way.

There are spherical and has pointy parts, like an odd durian.

Always something new everyday.

My galaxy. My world.

2011-07-25T11:53:00.001+08:00

First post in my spiffy new phone.

Hope to put more stuff here now that I am more connected than before.

Thank you for visiting.

MSN沒關的下場 ...

2011-07-20T12:17:00.001+08:00

MSN沒關的下場
一回來~我妹就跟我說...

哥...剛剛有好幾個人傳來祝你生日快樂耶!!!

接著我妹又說不過你在燒紙錢......
所以~我都有幫你回他們唷!!!
但是...他們都下線了耶~

我覺得很奇怪就看了一下記錄
結果......天才我老妹居然給我回
MSN - Su Imm: 『對不起，我哥已經不在了...
除非我去幫他燒紙錢，不然他沒有辦法
從下面上來跟你們說話......』

您听到吗？

2011-07-13T11:14:00.002+08:00

轻轻的微风带来了一个平静。
提醒我还有那有趣的声音。

开玩笑 ...

2011-07-11T16:35:00.002+08:00

我是一个幽默的人。
但我的笑话不好笑。
认识我的，听过我的，都懂我不能讲笑话。

但我却能笑。
因为我学会去听。

生命有很多好笑的事件。
有的是有趣的。
有的是有泪的。
但都能带来个笑。

明天可能是世界末日，
但今天我是活着的，
所以才能笑。

笑一笑，
解千愁。
无忧啊。

目然，回搜。

2011-07-05T00:25:00.002+08:00

再平静的湖，也会有波动。
除非是死了，怎能会不动。

放开了，不代表心已死，只能说是心已定。

面对的不只是外头的猛风，也须承受内心的忧郁。
如果放不下这些里里外外的困扰，心灵会往内崩溃。

人会有多少机会重新来过啊？
往日我会说很少，要珍惜和把握。
如今我说，每天都能。
只要我们接受自己的所有和勇敢的面对一切，我们就能重来。
所谓立地成佛，不就是这个道理吗？

道理可很简单。
咱们能否做的到就要看自己的修为了。

别要怕 ...

2011-06-29T09:42:00.002+08:00

如果说不会痛，那是假的。
但说不再怕痛，那倒是真的。

“人生不如意事，十长八九”
好朋友教我的。
这话不时说不开心的事就不理它。
而是不开心的事如何接受它。

这不应该称为容忍吧。
比较接近了解和容纳。

痛吗？当然会。
到最后，我们必经还是个凡人。
学会了不怕痛，我得了个简单的体会。

痛不再是个理由。
只是个状况。
该做的还得做。
了解了它，痛就不再能把我们拉倒。
修为高的可能还能从痛里头造出个童话来。

我的人生有高低，如意和不如意的都是帮我成长的点滴。
所以可以不怕痛了，因为它不在是个无形的魔鬼了。
而是生命路程里的其一个伴侣。

The lotus and the sea ...

2011-06-28T16:55:00.004+08:00

Something happen to me a few weeks back and has helped me come into perspective of some aspects in my life.

The details are not important so I am not going to bore you guys from my long rants.

In a nutshell, I have come to a conclusion that I am happy.

Simply happy.
No particular reason one or other.

It does not mean, that bad things are not happening around me.
It does not mean that I have found a cure for human malice.
It only means that I found a way to embrace it all within me and still be able to laugh.

Technically speaking, I did not "find" a way.
The way found me.

As I was going through layers and layers of physical pain, something happen at the back of my conscious mind that somehow took all the pain away and left me with an ability to deal with it without cracking.

It just happened.
I don't know how.
I don't understand why.
Only that it did.
And now I can look at pain and not get incapacitated by it.

That also gave me the ability to look back at all the things that I did with a calm and peaceful demeanor.

Not all of them were good, as I made my share of mistakes.
Most of them I made without thinking.
Some of them I made with no knowledge.
But mistakes none the less.
Mine forever to bear.

So my apologies to those who will read this.
There is no excuse for whatever actions that I made which have caused you hurt.
And I sincerely apologize for that.
As I am not seeking for forgiveness nor understanding, it is fair to say that what I am doing now is more of a statement rather than a request.

So if I have in one way or another cause you to feel pain, please let it go from your heart and forgive a man for his actions done. But most of all, let go of that anger which you might still carry with you, as I am not worth the pain that it brings into your life.

Whatever flaws which I might have, the one thing that I do live by is that I will not intentionally bring harm to another. And that anger which I planted into you is something that I do not wish upon any human being.

Let it go.
I am not worth it.
That anger will only give you more pain and sadness.
And I apologize again for that action.

A wise man once thought me that there is no hurt more painful than that which we hurt ourselves in anger. When we go angry, it is our soul which we hurt and our body which we burn with it.

So don't let anger seep into your life.
Especially if the cause of it is from a person like me.
It really is not worth it.

Kill the monkey ...

2011-06-02T16:14:00.001+08:00

This is something that I just learnt.

It is one of the best motto known to man.

"Kill the Monkey"

Curry Chicken or Sambal Balancan ...

2011-05-19T15:24:00.003+08:00

We come to work everyday.
We put our mind to task.
And then we black out everything else.

Its not enough.

The important stuff does not stop at just work.
It does not stop at just money for food.
Or money for your next toy.

There is more.
Much ... much more.

And yet ...

... we stumble to get the answer.

Why?

Is it because we are slow?

Because we don't open our eyes?

Or just that we don't know what we are looking at?

The choices we make.
Small and insignificant compared to the grand scheme of things.
Yet very relevant to our simple life we partake since birth.

Left?
Right?
Center?

Questions upon questions.
And so many more to come.

Are you going to stop and look properly?
Or just stumble on wards towards the promised epiphany that might come.

--- Translated by Google Translate ---

我們來上班。
我們把我們的頭腦的任務。
然後，我們黑掉一切。

遠遠不夠的。

最重要的東西並沒有止步於工作。
它不只是停留在錢的食物。
或者你的下一個玩具的錢。

還有更多。
多...等等。

可是...

...我們跌倒得到答案。

為什麼呢？

是不是因為我們是慢？

因為我們不開我們的眼睛？

或只是我們不知道我們是在看什麼？

我們作出的選擇。
渺小和微不足道的宏偉計劃相比的東西。
然而，很簡單的生活相關的，我們分享我們的自誕生。

還剩下什麼？
對嗎？
中心？

問題的這些疑問。
因此帶來更多的驚喜。

你要停下來看看是否正常？
或者只是偶然在病房對所承諾的頓悟，可能出現。

Sheathing the Sword ...

2011-05-05T11:54:00.002+08:00

I first learned of this phrase when I read the Wheels of Time Series.
Its a sword technique that is used in the gravest of circumstances and only if there is no other choice.

It involves the action of taking ones sword and plunging it into our own body so that it will come out at the back of us and hurting the opponent in a self-sacrificing manner.

Its one of the most gruesome way to fight and its often lethal to both parties.

So why am I talking about this here.

The reason is because I have found lately that circumstances keep coming to make me think that the only way to resolve the issues arising around me is to "Sheath the Sword".

It is a drastic act.
A culdesac situation.
What a bloody horrible mess.

Facebook depression ...

2011-03-31T11:36:00.003+08:00

Some people are saying that too much of Facebook is causing children to be depressed due to their small number of friends.

Its something that is happening around the world and its becoming an pandemic.

People...
Wake up.

This kind of depression happens with or without Facebook.

The only difference is that its more "public" instead of "private".

A lot of people had issues with relationships (I mean the one with friends and not the one involving sex) because of their lack of social skills.

Facebook is a social networking tool.
So of course there is going to be "Social Depression".

"We feel like we are losers because we don't have friends."
Thats what this is all about.
The sense of belonging.
The sense of being a part of something more than ourselves.

And its not new.

A lot of people base their sense of value on what others think of them.
So if your circle of friends are small, that "value" will obviously be "small".
Its a part of how people thinks.

It took me a while to understand this myself but eventually I understood that quality is better than quantity.
It was when I started to understand this rule that I began to have the opposite gender being interested with me. They seem to suddenly saw something different in me when I understood that I am happy with who I am. That itself is a different story from from
this post.

So if you feel like your depressed and that you have no friends?
Sit down.
Breath.
Be honest and think this through.
You always have friends.
You just don't have the friends you "want".
But you always have friends.

If you still don't?
Go out and talk to someone.
You will be surprise how many people who might want to be yours.

台一下。。。

2011-03-28T13:11:00.010+08:00

是一个下雨的天。
我们步行到那。

它給我的第一个印像。
简单。
不复杂。
和亲。

先看看餐盘。

Main Course（套餐）。。。

点了 S01,S02,S06和S07.
食物的味道还不错。

虽然都倾向咸，我个人比较喜好淡点的食品，但对大众而言应该不成问题。

好吃吗？
这是最好的真明。

单点（Side Order）。。。

这是第一道A03.

有点咸。
有点辣。
但满好吃。

第二，三，四道没像片。
太紧张，忘了拍。

我个人推选A07.
他们的水饺“一级班”

我们会回来吗？

应该会。

后驻：
抱歉，我这食物品尝Post，不是很到家。
但是我能凭良心说，食物不错。
如果你在它附近，能进去试一试。
您应该不会失望。
位于Fahrenheit 88（Formerly Known as KL Plaza）二楼，往后走。
You can't miss it.

大陈，小事。

2011-03-22T14:58:00.002+08:00

在我们的生活里，大部分小事都不会放上心。
但往往却是小事弄得大事情不可收拾。

战乱。
恐惧。
悲哀。
都是建立在小事上。

但同样的，开心和愉快的也是竖立在小事上。

一朵花。
一声谢谢。
一句对不起。
能让人感觉到希望和平静。

所以不要忘了小事。
别忽略它们的存在。
应为您不懂它何时会改变您的一生。

别问谁赢了。。。

2011-01-28T10:43:00.002+08:00

当我们情绪不稳定，大部分人都回直接的八情绪抛在脸上。
真情流露。
但往往后果不一定是我们想象的那么理想。

退一步海阔天空，
忍一时风平浪静。

[转帖] 年薪10萬的乞丐給我上了震撼的一課

2011-01-25T14:23:00.001+08:00

不错的帖，朋友传的。

我拎著剛買的levi's從茂業出來，站在門口等一個朋友。

一個職業乞丐發現了我，非常專業的、徑直的停在我面前。這一停，
於是就有了後面這個讓我深感震撼的故事，就像上了一堂生動的市場調查案例課。
為了忠實於這個乞丐的原意，我憑記憶盡量重複他原來的話。

「先生……行行好，給點吧。」我一時無聊便在口袋裡找出一個硬幣扔給他，
並同他攀談起來。乞丐很健談。」……

我只在華強北一帶乞討，你知道嗎？我一掃眼就見到你。在茂業買levi's，
一定捨得花錢……」

「哦？你懂的蠻多嘛！「我很驚訝。」做乞丐，也要用科學的方法。」他說。

我一愣，饒有興趣地問「什麼科學的方法？」

「你看看我和其他乞丐有什麼不同的地方先？」我仔細打量他，
頭髮很亂、衣服很破、手很瘦，但都不髒。

他打斷我的思考，說：「人們對乞丐都很反感，但我相信你並沒有反感我，
這點我看的出來。這就是我與其他乞丐的不同之處。」我點頭默認，
確實不反感，要不我怎麼同一個乞丐攀談起來。

「我懂得swot分析，優勢、劣勢、機會和威脅。對於我的競爭對手，
我的優勢是我不令人反感。機會和威脅都是外在因素，
無非是深圳人口多和深圳將要市容整改等。」

「我做過精確的計算。這裡每天人流上萬，窮人多，有錢人更多。
理論上講，我若是每天向每人討1塊錢，那我每月就能掙30萬。
但是，並不是每個人都會給，而且每天也討不了這麼多人。
所以，我得分析，哪些是目標客戶，哪些是潛在客戶。」

他潤潤嗓子繼續說：「在華強北區域，我的目標客戶是總人流量的3成，
成功機率70%。潛在客戶佔2成，成功機率50%；剩下5成，我選擇放棄，
因為我沒有足夠的時間在他們身上碰運氣。」

「那你是怎樣定義你的客戶呢？」我追問。

「首先，目標客戶。就像你這樣的年輕先生，有經濟基礎，出手大方。
另外還有那些情侶也屬於我的目標客戶，他們為了在異性面前不丟面子
也會大方施捨。其次，我把獨自一人的漂亮女孩看作潛在客戶，
因為她們害怕糾纏，所以多數會花錢免災。這兩類群體，
年齡都控制在20~30歲。年齡太小，沒什麼經濟基礎；年齡太大，可能已結婚
，財政大權掌握在老婆手中。這類人，根本沒戲，恨不得反過來找我要錢。」

「那你每天能討多少錢。」我繼續問。」週一到週五，生意差點，兩百塊左右吧
。週末，甚至可以討到四、五百。」

「這麼多？」見我有些懷疑，他給我算了一筆帳。

「和你們一樣，我也是每天工作8小時，上午11點到晚上7點，週末正常上班。
我每乞討1次的時間大概為5秒鐘，扣除來回走動和搜索目標的時間，
大概1分鐘乞討1次得1塊錢，8個小時就是480塊，
再乘以成功機率60%[（70%+50%）÷2]，得到將近300塊。」

「千萬不能黏著客戶滿街跑。如果乞討不成，我決不死纏濫打。
因為他若肯給錢的話早就給了，所以就算腆著臉糾纏，成功的機會還是很小。
不能將有限的時間浪費在無施捨慾望的客戶身上，不如轉而尋找下一個目標。」

強！這個乞丐聽上去真不可貌相，倒像是一位資深的市場營銷總監。

「你接著說。」我更感興趣了，看來今天能學到新的東西了。

「有人說做乞丐是靠運氣吃飯，我不以然。給你舉個例子，女人世界門口，
一個帥氣的男生，一個漂亮的女孩，你選哪一個乞討？」
我想了想，說不知道。」你應該去男的那兒。身邊就是美女，他不好意思不給。
但你要去了女的那邊，她大可假裝害怕你遠遠地躲開。」

再給你舉個例子。那天cocopark門口，一個年輕女孩，拿著一個購物袋，
剛買完東西；還有一對青年男女，吃著冰淇淋；
第三個是衣著考究的年輕男子，拿著筆記本包。

我看一個人只要3秒鐘，我毫不猶豫地走到女孩面前乞討。
女孩在袋子裡掏出兩個硬幣扔給我，並奇怪我為什麼只找她乞討。

我回答說，那對情侶，在吃東西，不方便掏錢；那個男的是高級白領，
身上可能沒有零錢；你剛從超市買東西出來，身上肯定有零錢。」

有道理！我越聽越有意思。

「所以我說，知識決定一切！」

我聽十幾個總裁講過這句話，第一次聽乞丐也這麼說。

要用科學的方法來乞討。天天躺在天橋上，怎麼能討到錢？
走天橋的都是行色匆匆的路人，誰沒事走天橋玩，爬上爬下的多累。
要用知識武裝自己，學習知識可以把一個人變得很聰明，聰明的人
不斷學習知識就可以變成人才。21世紀最需要的是什麼？就是人才。

「有一次，一人給我50塊錢，讓我替他在樓下喊「安紅，我想你」，喊100聲。
我一合計，喊一聲得花5秒鐘，跟我乞討一次花費的時間相當，所得的酬勞
才5毛錢，於是我拒絕了他。」

「在深圳，一般一個乞丐每月能討個千兒八百。運氣好時的大概兩千多點。
全深圳十萬個乞丐，大概只有十個乞丐，每月能討到一萬以上。
我就是這萬里挑一中的一個。而且很穩定，基本不會有很大的波動。」

太強了！我越發佩服這個乞丐了。

「我常說我是一個快樂的乞丐。其他乞丐說是因為我討的錢多，所以快樂。
我對他們說，你們正好錯了。正是因為我有快樂、積極的心態，所以討的錢多。」

說的多好啊！

「乞討就是我的工作，要懂得體味工作帶來的樂趣。雨天人流稀少的時候，
其他乞丐都在抱怨或者睡覺。千萬不要這樣，用心感受一下這坐城市的美。
晚上下班後帶著老婆孩子逛街玩耍看夜景，一家三口其樂融融，也不枉此生了。
若是碰到同行，有時也會扔個硬幣，看著他們高興的道謝走開，
就彷彿看見自己的身影。」

「你還有老婆孩子？」我不禁大聲讚歎，引來路人側目。

我老婆在家做全職太太，孩子念小學。我在福田區按揭了一套房，十年分期，
還差六年就還清了。我要努力掙錢，供我兒子讀大學念市場營銷專業，
然後子承父業當一個比我更出色的乞丐。

「我5年前在微硬中華大區做市場策劃，2年前升為營銷經理，月薪5千。
那時按揭了一台1萬多的三星筆記本，每個月還款2千，要死要活的。
後來我想這樣永遠也出不了頭，就辭職不幹了，下海來做乞丐，
我願意做一個高素質的乞丐。」

聽完，我激動地說：「你有沒有興趣收我做徒弟……」

His Married ...

2011-01-08T10:36:00.000+08:00

... Yes he is. :)

Congrates Nicholas And Ann.

伯乐与千里马也...

2010-10-12T14:25:00.002+08:00

天生贤才，自是共一代之用。
不患世无人，而患不知人。
不患不知人，而患知人而不用。

已包了的啊。。。

2010-09-28T22:19:00.002+08:00

A: 如果你做的工做得不开心，你为何还继续做呢？
B: 那是因为“不开心”已被工资包了的啊。
A: ...

既来之则安之。。。

2010-09-08T00:10:00.004+08:00

有的，没的。
虚实，真假。

开眼，闭心。
赢空，输本。

身在，念外。
来了，不在。

简单的复杂。。。

2010-09-06T16:29:00.004+08:00

每个人都有自己的观点。
同常是没有说为的对或错，只是方法不同而已。

当有人不认同我们，我们该怎么样呢？

我本身不会强人所难。
可能会试着说服他人，但通常如果遇到观点冲突太强，我都回退。
意见的不合，不需要弄得太僵。

如果我真的认为是对的，我可以自己赏试去做，来证实给自己，说这不是个梦。

我想捉摸的是如何把身边的人带进好点的生活状况。
如果他们看不见，我只好用事实来表达我的意义。

东西永远不可能，直到有人将它变可能。
永世不变的真理。

闪闪让人爱。。。

2010-09-05T12:47:00.004+08:00

人与人相处有时需要的不只是谅解，而还需要无条件的接受。
明知道是一个不可要得的习惯也得要了下来。
不应为什么，只应为爱。
傻吗？
我觉得挺傻的，但还是会照单全收。
爱本来就有着哪一种莫明其妙的条件。
那种无人能理解的动机。
没有任何的逻辑。

我不是个浪漫家。
但我明白爱。
我只能希望活得简单和开心。

你说上天会让我吗？

一两句。。。

2010-09-03T11:42:00.002+08:00

偶尔会想想消失的光阴。
他到那儿了？
会想念我吗？
有后悔吗？
还是我想多了。

蓦然回首...

2010-09-02T21:28:00.000+08:00

当我们都茫然地向前走，有时我们会看不见背后的人在盼望着我们的回头。

你还好吗？

2010-08-24T17:08:00.002+08:00

已经很久没有在这留言了。
可能是应为太忙吧？
大家还好吗？

无需担心。
我还活着。

可能的话，应该多点交流交流。

工作已不在那么的绑紧我的时间。

生活已平淡化。

有时在家望出窗外，看见的是平静的天空，觉得安详得多。

这种日子能待多久，我也不懂。
希望不会太短吧。

柴九说“人生有多少个十年啊？”

我说“人生有多少个明天呢？”

他看大局。
我看眼前。

自己管好自己的岗位，希望别人也管好各自的岗位。
明天就有机会更美丽。

要顾大局，有时需要先看眼前事。

年纪大了才开始明白这道理。

小孩为什么?

2010-03-29T17:17:00.001+08:00

小孩：为什么他可以讲，但我不可以？
爸爸：因为他是大人啊。
小孩：是吗？
爸爸：小孩子不要乱讲话，以小扮大。
小孩：我没乱讲啊。
爸爸：不智。
小孩：大人讲就一定对吗？
爸爸：还不明白吗？
小孩：不明白。
爸爸：不明白就别出声，留心听，用眼看。
小孩：还是不明白。
爸爸：傻孩子，要明白就得安静的听。
小孩：我听了还是不明白啊。
爸爸：那就要更加不出声。
小孩：不明白不是因该问清楚吗？
爸爸：愚者问之仿问无，智者问之夜明亮。
小孩：爸，你老人痴呆了啊？
爸爸：。。。

Hero No more ...

2010-03-29T16:50:00.002+08:00

在很多人的眼里，他曾经是位英雄。
最少对我来说，他是。
我会放弃外国回国的原因之一也是因为他。
但人往往都不能活在自己的梦境里的。
妻子常说我有着那不切实际的英雄主义。
可能是因为读太多的武侠小说吧。

长大了，梦灭了。
英雄已不再。
留下又为甚？
弃了足下藤，
另寻安温居。

247 Wear ...

2010-03-04T01:38:00.002+08:00

My Custom T-Shirt Design Shop is now open.
Its still in its infant stage as I have yet to setup a proper method to obtain and deliver my goods.

But its a start for me to introduce the designs that I have in my little black book.

So if you have any idea that you wish to put on a T-Shirt let me know and I will see if I can accommodate what you have in mind and print it for you.

I'll be back ...

2010-02-08T11:15:00.000+08:00

生命如夏花洵爛,
死如秋葉之靜美.

生日快乐

2009-10-21T00:04:00.001+08:00

To 燕,

迟到总比不到好.

From,
艾萨克

小日，耳新，呼吸

2009-10-16T15:01:00.000+08:00

小子，您干什么？
日上三竿才爬起来干活。

一天就这么样用完了。

耳朵只懂听好话。
实话就怎么也进不了心头。

那来什么上进心？
那来什么斗志？

梦想早就给毁了。
还傻傻的意味着自己有多利害。

该醒来了啦。
别糊里糊涂的给埋进坟墓里。
再不回头就只能怪自己苯。

命啊，就只一个。
用完了，就没了。

懂怎么做吗？
吸一大口气，然后呼出来。
重复这动作一百次。
明白了吗？

活着就是懂得珍惜每一口气。
别让它给忘了。
去活吧。
还呆在这干吗？

In WNS ...

2009-10-15T15:30:00.004+08:00

The funny thing is that once I have only one site left to post, I still end up only posting very little.

Today in the office we were talking about how our system behaves strangely.

So I said ... "In WNS everything is possible".

Then after a while I though it did not sound as proper.

So it became ... "IN WNS NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE".

The guys agreed.

Because its true.

In WNS anything can happend.

魔鬼在细节之中...

2009-10-13T18:03:00.002+08:00

许多人以为生活是复杂的.
它只是一个假象.

复杂性是一个人为的概念.

你把吃作为一个例子。
只要吃得饱,那该足够了.

但众人不赞成这个概念.
它必须是好吃的.
必须有味道.
香的.
细嫩的.
不只是填补我们的肚子.
不仅足够的营养.
一碗水饺面是不能够满足他们的.

但我可以在一碗水饺面里找到幸福.
我就是这么简单.
开心就好.

一句话 ...

2009-10-05T14:31:00.001+08:00

弃我去者,昨日之日不可留,
乱我心者,今日之日多烦忧.

October First Two Thosand and Nine

2009-10-01T11:09:00.002+08:00

Its the first day of October and as I mentioned before, weareworldnet is no longer active.

Have been doing some internal planning and am quite certain that I am not going to be starting any new projects soon.

Tired.
But hopeful.

Here I place my thoughts and dreams.
Life goes on.

Holiday ...

2009-09-25T01:40:00.002+08:00

Its my second day of holiday since my last holiday.
One whole week of not thinking about work.
Have not been doing that kind of "independence" thinking for a very long time.

Yes, phone calls did come in but surprisingly I am not as warped up about them as I used to anymore.

Maybe because I am too tired to be worrying about it anymore.

Of course if I am tired, I am thinking what is the Boss feeling.
He is taking up more than 3 hats now and his physically sick at the same time.
My guess is that his tired into his bones as of now.
Maybe the 3 days rest in Avilion in PD helped but I doubt it.

I have come to a conclusion.
I will be retiring the blog site weareworldnet.blogspot.com
The idea for that was to help strengthen the bonds of the people around the team.
The experiment failed miserably.
Like the rest of my ideas.
Mostly failures.

Took stock during the last few weeks after I received LC resignation letter.
Its not that I did not expect it, but the letter it self was still a blow to the gut.
I understand the decision and I respect it.
She had more or less told me to the face that she would be going and that I should not bother to ask her to stay.
She was tired of all the problems that was blooming up everywhere.

Though most of the issues are not something that I could have resolved with the power invested in me, I do feel personally responsible because she is my a part of my team.
So I took her advice and not say anything about it.

I like working in this particular workplace.
As I feel the kinship it still gives me when I walk in.
But I also understand that not everyone likes nor see what I see in the morning.

So yeah.
Loosing people are going to hurt.
There is no way around it.
But I still believe that something great is going to happen.
Am I delusional?
Am I just self-motivating?
Can't tell you for sure but I do know one thing.
I ain't going until there is nothing left to stay.

Drinking water through the nose ...

2009-09-10T14:30:00.000+08:00

Have been feeling under the weather lately.
Monday gave me a migraine that bed ridden me the whole day.
Today I am having another headache that is threatening to make me puke.

Body is complaining that I have not been giving it enough rest.

Have been spending the last few weeks between 11PM - 3 AM going through coding that should have been working but isn't.
Am still going through the coding because the process logic is not documented and I am "relearning" the system via existing data and whatever codes that I can find.

There are so many things that I used to believe in that now requires me to relook into.
The trust factor has gone so badly that I am force to re-evaluate into even the most low level of things like object creation methods.
Which I did find to be down right unusable instead of just wrong.
Assumptions that I made in the past are now coming back to haunt me.

So now, the body is telling me that if I don't stop and rest, its going to go into shutdown regardless of my objections.

It looks like I am in for another week of lost sleep if I were to keep the clients happy.

And after that its Flash and PHP.

Woohoo, I am bloody enjoying my life now.

早安，谢谢，对不起 ...

2009-09-01T03:12:00.002+08:00

不知何时开始，养成了会跟任何人都说早安的习惯。
无论是早，午或晚，我都会说早安。
可能别人会认为很虚伪。
但在我脑里“早安”已变成了和“您好”有着同一个意思了。
遇见了，打个招呼，对我而言是一种提起正气的方法。
别无他意。

之于“谢谢”呢?
这是妈妈教的。
她说任何帮过我们的人，我们都一定要记得说“谢谢”。
习惯了，有时说了都不记得。

最近发现自己会常常说“对不起”。
老婆。
朋友。
同事。
陌生人。
态度有点变了。
没有少年的时候那把“火”了。
总觉得不必太在意。
都一把年纪了，又和苦耿耿于怀呢？
把眼睛放宽一点儿，看看不同的角度。
也不是说别人没错，逼自己忍着把气吞下去。
而是看开一点，他人错了又如何？
难道要他们陪命吗？
错了，纠正过来便好了啦。
何必非要把他人贬得一文不值？
所以渐渐得就把“对不起”用拿来把事情淡化的方法。
认输不一定是“输”。
只要能把事情完美的解决就好。

曾经听过有人说。
当我们为他人而打架，那是正义。
当我们为自己而打架，那是自我。

我想我该是时候董得放开自己了吧。

More than meets the eye

2009-08-28T16:19:00.002+08:00

I-Ching is one of the few that I could not really read.
Him and Yaw Eng are a total mystery to me.
Its not like I read the others well but atleast I can still guess what they are thinking and have a chance to be 30 - 50% correct.

But with I-Ching, I have a 0% success rate.

Its not because his dodgy or he has a malicious soul.
To me, its because his so different from me that there is very little of common ground that we could share.
I am sure the others don't have my problem with I-Ching as they all get along with him just nicely.

The first day he came in, what I saw was someone in his early 20's which he is not, he was already 27 years old then.
Wrong estimation, the ball was not even NEAR the goal post.
And that more or less became a common thing for me whenever it came to I-Ching.

He is an inteligent, funny and observent person.
Yet his look and his way does not reflect it.
I often see him as a youngling that needed a lot of guidance but in reality he was fully mature and able to take of himself well.

Even when I first saw his girl friend (now soon to be wife), I had the same misconception of her too.
The both of them are independent and strong in their soul yet they radiate a totally different aura around them.

From I-Ching I learned a valuable lesson.
I have learned to trust my instincts when dealing with people, but I-Ching brought in a totally different set of rules which I am still slowly learning to incorperate into my data bank. In time I might be able to better understand him. But it would be from some other method and environment.

As I mentioned in the other blog, he is a caring and sensitive person.
And I thank god for having the oppurtunity to work and laugh with such a soul.

Of course one of the things that will forever be in my mind would be this little episode during lunch.

Doesn't he just look charming?

Take care of yourself, my friend.
And good luck.
If you need any help or just need to have someone to listen to your ramblings.
You have my number.

不止一种方法，剥猫的皮 ...

2009-08-25T00:36:00.004+08:00

当我们没有一名汉语翻译工具时，我们该怎么办？

那是太容易解决了.

只需使用谷歌翻译做博客.

当然, 它也不是容易如123.
也需要具备一定的技术与一些精明的心思.

比如说 ...
我要说, "请使用谷歌作为替代博客工具"
我必须用不同的操作方式来表达我的意思.

如果我直接说"Please use Google translator as an alternative blogging tool!!"
谷歌翻译将是"请利用它作为一种博客工具，谷歌翻译！"
其意义是完全不同.

因此,我需要拆散句子成为个自的分段.
举例来说,
Please use -> 请使用
Google Translator -> 谷歌翻译
used as -> 作为
Alternate -> 替代
Blogging tool -> 博客工具

原始但却很有效.
欢迎您自己尝试一下。

Uhmmmmmm .....

2009-08-21T14:10:00.003+08:00

We are often plague by uncertainty.
The want to find peace.
The need to be safe.
And then there comes a day that makes choosing safety very challenging.

We are put into the situation where the right thing to do is not the safe one.

Nor is it the popular one.

Pauline talked to me some weeks back before she left WNS and said that I should not always try to be a good guy.

It caught me off guard and I was curious where that comment came from.

As far as I know, I have not tried to be a good guy or a bad one.

I just did what came naturally to me as of the time that I did it.

When pushed to tell, she said that "Being a good guy sucks. People don't remember whatever good you did before once you make a single bad decision."

That statement spoke volumes.

Now I understood the motive behind her words.

People assume that I do what I do because I wanted to be the hero.
The GOOD guy.

Well, I told her that she could rest easy on that.

Because I don't want to be the good guy.
I don't even want people to know that I exist if that's possible.
Being in the lime light is a very stressful thing.
Stress that I know I would be better without.

So my answer to her was rather simple.

I do what I do because I believe it is the right thing to do.

If the right thing is not the popular thing than I will have to bear with the consequences. But I will not live my life in fear of what other people think of me. If I am wrong, I will gladly admit it.

But I won't stop doing the right thing just because others believe that it is inconvenient for their lives.

No decisions can please everyone.
There are bound to be those who agree with us.
And there are those who don't.
Its part of the process of communication.

And people will almost always support the actions that is beneficial to them alone.
If our choices put us in the path of public dislike, we will just have to ask ourselves the simple truth.
Is this the right thing to do?
If yes, are you willing to do what needs to be done?
If yes, are you willing to bet your life on it.

If all three answers are "Yes" then be prepared for a lot of pain in the conceivable future.
As the saying goes, "No good deed goes unpunished."

Don't get angry ...

2009-08-17T17:18:00.005+08:00

I am usually quite patient with people.
That does not mean I don't angry.
Yet once a while I get rather pissed when I am dealing with people who are single minded and narrow in their views.

As long as it does not fit into their comfort zone, they lash out.
Even when they are the one in the wrong.

I tell the others that we are all that is left.
We are the one that will either make or break the NET.
But of course it does not register to their index list.

I can't really ask anyone for anything.
I can only hope that they understand that things are going to get worst if we don't do what needs to be done.
To put aside the petty differences and work together for the common good.

The passion to do the right thing is very strongly embedded in my mentality.
My senior use to say that I will most probably die doing the right thing.
I never denied his observation.

So friends.
I won't ask you to do what you don't want to do.
But you can be assured that I will always do what needs to be done.

Looking inside from the outside ...

2009-08-14T12:12:00.002+08:00

Did not even notice but I have not been blogging for more than 2 months.

Work has been hectic.

Moving office.

Getting fever.

H1N1 possibility scare ... (Still a possibility now)

Rosta Module not working due to missing source codes.

But all in all ... the shift of premise has been a positive move.
At least I personally think so.

Maybe because its the new chairs.
Yeah.
I love my new chair.

And one last note, this is NOT where I work.

I just work NEAR it.

Kick my balls ...

2009-06-16T12:04:00.001+08:00

Confused.
Tired.
Lost.

But most of all sad.

sad to loose my comrades.

Money ...

2009-06-10T16:40:00.000+08:00

Thats the name of the game.

People are graspping for it.

I am graspping for it too.

Only human.

But I have always been smart about it.

I don't let it control me.

I make it a point to always remember who is the boss.

Remember the story about the master and the horse.
The horse does not want to be ridden.
But it allows the master to ride it because he is stronger.
Yet if the master shows even a single sign of weakness.
The horse will throw him off.
And the horse becomes the master.

The cruel truth.

But it is a fact.

So ... are you the master?
Or are you the horse?

人生是什麼?

2009-06-03T14:14:00.000+08:00

人生是什麼?

只用了 4 4 個字 , 就把人生講完了 ...

1 歲時出場亮相
10 歲時功課至上
20 歲時春心盪漾
30 歲時職場對抗
40 歲時身材發胖
50 歲時打打麻將
60 歲時老當益壯
70 歲時常常健忘
80 歲時搖搖晃晃
90 歲時迷失方向
100 歲時掛在牆上

Do you know?

2009-05-18T16:02:00.003+08:00

"I Don't Know"
That’s what the Chinese characters are saying.

Its one of the most common phrase used in any language.

A common excuse used when we are faced with issues which we do not expect to be associated with.

Due to the reason that it’s the most widely used phrase to "push" away responsibility, it has lost its integrity value.

Even though it is actually a valid answer when used in its appropriate context.

Telling another person that we do not have all the answers are not an excuse.
It’s merely a fact.

But to just leave the issue unresolved under the "I don't know" umbrella is unprofessional.

Personally I can accept that not every answer is readily available.
To acknowledge that fact is a key step to getting the answer itself.

We must first know that WE DON'T KNOW and most importantly WE DON'T KNOW what WE DON'T KNOW OF, in order for us to move forward.

"How?" you ask.

If you don't know what you need to know, how do you go about knowing what to seek?

As I said, by knowing that fact alone is the key to it all.

The answer to that riddle is to seek answers everywhere.
Leave no stone unturned.
Ask all questions available regardless of how dumb it might sound.
Because we don't know what we are looking for, we then seek everything.
We will only know when we find it.

I always thought that phrase to be very "Gandalf" in nature.
But it seems to be proving it consistently correct.

Life is an ever learning experience.
Saying that "I Know" puts a huge obstacle in front of that path of learning.
By simply embracing that we don't know, we allow our self so much more space to grow.

So don't be shy to admit that we are lacking in knowledge.
Don't be stubborn and insist that we are always right.
We gain more when we open up our minds to all possibilities.

So yeah, I say...
"I don't know.”
"But I am willing to be taught."

A song in the head ...

2009-05-13T09:55:00.002+08:00

I can't get the song out of my head.
This song from One Republic.
"Stop and Stare"
The lyrics and the melody seem to be dancing in front of me.

It pushes my mind to swim again.

Pondering.

What do you see in me?

The world judges us.
We judge ourselves.
The verdict is seldom what we expect.
Most of us don't even want to know the answer to it.
So much so we put ourselves down just so that when we do fail we don't hurt so much.
Aim low so that if you miss you don't feel the pain.

It’s of course all bull.

The way is of course to aim high.
Always aim higher than you can reach.

So that if you do miss, you still end up generally somewhere better than where we are now.

I know that people are scared of the unknown.
They fear that future that is a blur to them.
Some would even stand forever still and never move an inch so that everything is always what they understand.
Everything in a neat little box with pin cushions and candy bars.

And then there are other kind that does much to facilitate as much as change as possible because they can't man up to their reality.
The think they are moving but actually they go no where.
Just like the hamster in its running wheel.
They run and run just so they think they can run away from it all.
Never stop to ponder if this where they are supposed to be?

You need to stop and wonder why you’re here and not there.
There where you should be.
Doing something that you feel good doing.

Yes, reality sucks and it does not give you the luxury to do what you want.
Yet, my answer is the same.

Why are you still here?

You made a decision to be here.
You believe that it’s never going to happen.
You stop the dream before it even formed.

Can you count back all the sleepless nights that you wish it was different?
Can you remember all the time where you stand in the middle of a crowd and you don't know why you are there?
Can you still feel that empty hole inside of you whenever you are alone?

It’s happening because we stopped dreaming.
We stopped pushing ourselves.
It’s so scary that we run just for the sake of running.
Desperately seeking that thing which eludes our grasps.

That is why I stopped running.
I stopped and started to look around.
Pulling my focus back into the reality around me.
And then I make the decision.
I will become all that I can be.
I will live to the fullest extent that my life can contain and more.

Enough of all this bickering.
Just stop it all.
I know it’s scary.
I understand that it’s overwhelming.
I know you want to start running again.
Well you’re not alone.
I know.
Steady hands will lead you to where you need to go.
Choose to be more.

Can you see what I see?

5 Days later ...

2009-05-06T09:56:00.000+08:00

The very strange thing about going to a holiday is that people expect to be totally relax and full of energy when you come back to work.
It’s not as simple as that of course.
Things don't just magically happen because you take a break and surf the beach.
It takes quite a lot of focus to not think about the work lying on the table.
Or the issues which we left behind at home.

It took me sometime and a lot of practice to be able to let things go.

It’s not about forgetting the problem.
It’s about letting it go.
You might not think much about it but whenever we carry so much of grief on our shoulders; it eventually drags us down to the gutter.
We have to learn to acknowledge and let go if we want to live long enough to see the launch of commercial space travel.

So this time round, I actually succeeded in letting it all go.
For 1 whole week, I focused on my wife and the lovely beaches in the sunshine state.
I also started to look within myself again.
Just like what my "guru" advised in his book.

Self-revision is a key part of becoming better.
Post-mortem discussions are the corner stone of improvements.
So during those 7 days of sun and wind, I dwelled deep into my core and faced myself.

Not everything was what I expected.
I have lost a lot of what I though to be me during the recent years.
Yet I have also gained a lot of what help redefined my core.
I still value integrity of the soul among everything else.
I still seek to honor my life with deeds that I can be proud of.
I still cherished all that I have with me today.

What have I lost then?
I lost my sense of direction.
Didn't I just mention what I had on top?
Doesn't that define my map of what to do and where to go?

Actually no.

What I have is a correct attitude.
Or what I call the proper tools to get things done.
But what I lack is the "THING TO BE DONE".
That’s the direction.
The directive.
What is it that I want to achieve in my life now?
Where is the goal?

My goal before I reached my 30th birthday had always been to build up my character in order to be able to go the extra mile.
From what I can garner during my self-inspection, I believe that I have more or less done what I have set out to do.
Now that I am here, I am at a lost of where I want to go next.
It's a frustrating experience.
I hate being indecisive.
Which is why I stuck to a motto I have when I studied the US Marine Corp of Engineers.
"When in doubt, pick one and do it"

I chose world.net.

I took what I understood to be the company’s direction and made it my own.
It’s not a long term thing but its something to let me grab on to while I figure out my own way.

During those few days of clarity, I found something’s that I don't mind doing.
Hopefully it will be the first step for me to move on to even more interesting paths.

Let’s get to it.
Sunshine is wasting away.

5 Days ...

2009-04-24T13:06:00.003+08:00

Will be gone from 25th April - 3rd May.
Celebrating my wife's birthday in Gold Coast.

Its all about making her smile. :)

Chase the dream and not the competition...

2009-04-17T01:40:00.000+08:00

Was watching some "Britain got Talent" and heared one of them say this.

Its what I have been preaching since I was in high school.

Chasing after other peoples achievement is just unrealistic.

You can say that I am kidding myself because I can't handle the competition.

Yet whenever I am chasing after my dream, I tend to no longer care if others are actually critisizing what I do.

Its my dream.
Its my life.
Its my way.

So yeah.
It might be a tag line for some commercial entity.
To me its my definition of living.

Chase the dream and not the competition.
Thats just the way I roll.

You won't know ...

2009-04-16T10:55:00.000+08:00

People like to stay in their comfort zone.
That's a fact.
That's what our genes are programed to do.

But unlike our computer couterparts.
We get to bulk the system command.

We have enough free will to decide if we WANT to keep ourselves in the comfort zone.

I have tried to embrace change as much as I can.
Thats what I believe makes me stronger than those who are better than me.
Its the kind of attitude that allows me to look at myself in an angle that makes me question the very architecture that is currently me.

Deep down I am sure I will always be afraid of change.
But I also know that I have the will to embrace that fear.
The courage to do what needs to be done regardless of the terror it brings.

The people who have achieved success in their life.
Are those that challenge the status quo.
They question their very existence.
They give it their best.
And have enough faith to believe that things will always work out the way it should.

Just so you get an idea what I mean, she is the proof that we should never give up trying.

2 to Tango ...

2009-04-15T13:59:00.000+08:00

One of the many things I learn in school.
My teacher always said that no one does anything alone.
It takes at least 2 people to make anything succesfull.
And you know what?

His right.
It always takes two to tango.

The Boss is back ...

2009-04-14T19:08:00.001+08:00

Enough said.

Working Hands ...

2009-04-13T14:22:00.000+08:00

Thats what I see when I took the picture down.

A pair hands that worked for a living.

A provider to his household.

A man.

Thats what I use to strive to be.

Note on the "use to".

Now my priorities are different.

Now I see that a pair of hands are not enough.

I need a lot of them to achieve a bigger dream.

So I change my choice to train others to have the same kind of strength and capability needed.

Some call me a farmer of man.

I call myself a believer of potentials.

Work on Sunday ...

2009-04-12T02:16:00.000+08:00

Before I became a boy friend and later a husband.
Working on a Sunday is actually a norm for me.
I will leave KL on a Friday evening, taking a train straight back to Seremban.
Then on the Sunday will take the same train back to KL.
But instead of going back to my empty room, I go back to my empty office.

I get a lot of work cleared off and have enough time to even read up a few forums on how to write better pattern coding.

Well, today is a Sunday.
And I am planning to go back later to finish off a series of projects that has been left pending on my in-tray since Friday.
Under normal working days, its almost impossible for me do coding because of the amount of discussion and meetings that comes my way in awkward timing.

Personally I don't find working any harder than the other things that I do in my life. To me its just another item in the check list. We do it and then we move on.

Enjoy your life people.
Do it the way you like to live.
No one can dictate what it is that is important to you.
Which is why I believe that working with people with a similar mindset as me is much easier to get things done.

Those who thinks differently from me are not wrong.
They have their perspective and their own opinions.
And I happily accept it as part of the individuals personality and characteristics.
Its just harder to work with them because we need to explain a little more to convince them to be patient a little longer in order to see the result.

Update:
17:00PM - Walked into office.
23:36PM - Just finished 40% of the work. Have another 60% to do. Going home now.

时间到了，就该走了...

2009-04-09T10:50:00.000+08:00

Was planning to write about something else but instead Yong's blog gave me some thing to think about.

A former manager of mine tought me this...
"When you have achived what you set to do then you should leave and do something else."

He said it while we were coming back from a presentation to Astro on a logistic deal we were planning to sell to them.
We never got that project, mainly because Astro wanted someone more in tune with their business direction.
But I still remember that phrase.

Once a while I bring it up and I think about it.
Have I achieved what I have set out to do?
Is it time to move on?

The answer is still no.
Not yet.
I have not achived what I set out to do.
I made a promise.
And I intend to keep that promise.

Fitness First ...

2009-04-08T11:06:00.000+08:00

Have been seing this colour combination more these days, instead of the old blue and yellow.

Paying money to keep fit seems like a good idea.
I mean, we don't have the know how to do it the right way.
Exercising with wrong coordination can cause more harm than good.
Its not just tearing a tendon or muscle pains.
Bad exercises can hurt your bone allignments or worst causing body injuries that will never heal properly.

One of the latest news that I have been hearing is that people who do Yoga practices without proper guidance actually have a higher chance of fracturing a bone than say a person who is involved in a car accident.

Thats how bad it can be.

So if you want to do anything.
Do it right.
Do it with care.
And most of all, do it smart.
Going in headstrong without thinking it through will not help at all.

Copy Comment from "你今天BLOG了吗?" ...

2009-04-07T11:13:00.000+08:00

星子的神话 said...
呵呵，我欣赏你对华文的热诚

妯娌
zhóuli
- 兄弟的妻子的合称

囧
jiǒng

- (象形。本作“囧”。象窗口通明。本义:光明)
- 同本义。如:冏冏(光明的样子);冏彻(明亮而通彻);冏寺(即太仆寺。古代官署名。掌舆马及马政);冏牧(冏卿。太仆寺卿)
- 鸟飞的样子。如:冏然(鸟飞的样子)
- 网上流行的原因并非因为它的本义，而是看起来因为像一个人的脸

This is about you ...

2009-04-07T10:33:00.000+08:00

Since I was 12 years old, I understood and accepted that I am not smart.
It took me 5 years to learn my alphabets in their correct order.
Thats how dumb I am.

I needed others to help me be better.
I needed advice from those that know more than me.
I needed support from almost every living being that is near my vicinity.

Now that I am 33.
It has not change much.

I still need others to help me be better.
I still need advice from people to understand things.
I still need support from almost every person who is willing to lend a hand.

One will imagine that after living for so long, I would have understood that its important to be independent.
To be able to things for myself.

Isn't that what school teaches us?
To be useful?
To contribute?

Well, I do try my best to do just that.
But I believe that being strong does not mean that we can only do everything ourself.
Being strong does not mean that we push away help.

To me aprt of being strong is the ability to acknowledge that we need help.
And to be strong enough to accept it when it is given.
So yeah, just wanted to say thanks to all of you.

My formula to success is this...
Hard work.
Pure Luck.
Simple Faith
And support from my friends.

Cut the fish...

2009-03-25T15:27:00.001+08:00

Am not in the mood for big postings.
My head is still spinning from needing to come out with a full delivery plan for WOT when it is already 70% in the development stage.

In hind sight, I should have forsaw the need to prepare all these documentations to address the kind of questions that the boss will throw at me.
But as the word hind sight infers, it is sight AFTER it has happend.

So now, I am sitting in a corner figuring out a plan that is realistic and practical to be tabled into the meetings.

As a technical lead, I am basically entrusted to ensure that all technical related process is in order and is maintanable within a sustainable business environment.

As the WOT project started, I was still only given the part of Technical Design Control.
The management of the project was never really part of my scope.
But with the cutbacks and project managers leaving the company, it somehow dropped into my lap.

As of now, I am PM for WOT.
And I only knew about it on Monday.

A fully commercialble WOT is now my duty.

You might think that I am angry or that I should be pissed for being put into such a position.
But the reality is, I am not.
Its not about the cup half full or half empty issue.
Its just me gauging a potential item's threat level and neutralizing it.

I was taught that chance favours the prepared mind.
And EVERYTHING is an oppurtunity waiting for us to exploit.

Please know this.
This is not positive thinking.
This is not about mentally preparing ourselves for war.
This is not about ego.

This is about getting things done.
This is about us being responsible to our own actions.
This is about life.

Thank God its going to be Friday ...

2009-03-12T17:33:00.000+08:00

Will be meeting the man ...

... and a Cat tommorow for lunch.

At least thats the plan.

Another trip south ...

2009-03-11T10:46:00.000+08:00

If you have not been here for sometime.
You will find that my blog is not being updated very often.
Reason being ... I have not been taking a lot of photo's lately.
Why no photo?

Because am tired.

:)

Its a sad excuse but its a valid one.

Will be going on another trip to Australia.
This time its Gold Coast, Queensland.

Whats there?
Sun, Beach and maybe some relax time.

Was planning this last year for my wife's birthday.
But as of now, its starting to become my escape more than anything else.

Yeap.

25/APR/2009 - 2/MAY/2009

Thats how long I will be there.

Will plan to pass everything off to the others before I go on leave.

知足 ... Version 247

2009-03-04T19:08:00.000+08:00

Note : This is a Yong Requested Assignment.

With a mandarin title, obviously you will be expecting a chinese content posting.
But sorry, I am just much more comfortable in English.
Plus I am doing this at home and my notebook has no Chinese software.

Yong told me about using Google Translator or something to do Chinese posting but he never got around to teach me how to install and use it. Me being a computer guy and everything should be able to figure it out but I never seem to get the time to do it.

Yet the topic beseeches me to ask "Is it important that I do in Chinese"?

Is it not enough that a posting be done in a manner that everyone can understand?

We do live in a world where English is the common bridge.
But like our fathers before us, they to have a problem with picking a language.
My dad never learned mandarin until I went to a Chinese school.
He will stand beside me during my nightly lessons with mom and instead of reading newspaper, he read beside me to learn how to read mandarin.
Of course he never really succeeded in learning enough to "blogpost" but he had learned enough to read simple commercials and order food.
Now a days he speaks mandarin so fluently that sometimes people mistook him for having a chinese educated background.

Me? Half the time people think I can't speak mandarin, let alone write it.
Why? Because I use the english language whenever I am working.
Seldom do I advertised the fact that I CAN write and speak it well.

My father thought me English, and even today, this is the language I communicate with him most.
Yet it’s the mandarin language that brought us together as father and son.

So comes the topic in discussion.
Is it enough that we know what we know today?
If my dad did not make himself learn the mandarin language, he and I would never have the kind of bonding experience that we have today.
If my dad did not find himself lacking in knowledge, he would not push himself to grasp the difficult things in life.

Being content does not mean we stop learning.
Being content, means we appreciate what we have and to give credit where credit is due.
Looking forward and learning from our past, gives us the proper perspective we need to understand what we have now.
Being able to grasp that subtle message allows all of us to appreciate our life.
That is what being content means.

It’s a simple logic.

Learn from the past.
Reach for the future.
Live in the present.

Three unique and inter-dependent entities.

I understand ...

2009-03-02T16:45:00.000+08:00

During meeting today, a question was posed.
"Can management do some proper planning before they ask us to start work?"

My answer was something like this ...

"The project was commissione 2 weeks back and we had planned a flow of work which we are certain of delivery."
"One of which was the products were to be manually keyed in by people to faciliate product content"
"Up until last thursday, we realized that the amount of data that we are suppose to put in might be too much to handle so an automated process might be a good way to pre-populate the data"
"So now we are doing this so that we can move ahead and deliver a DB with content to the client for testing by the end of this week."

There was silence.

I can hear the words popping up in their head.

"What? Again last minute requirement?"
"How to do?"
"How to deliver?"

Seriously?
I understand the issue.
The last minute requirement is something that I do not like nor enjoy.
Problem is that this project was adhoc and the money is needed for our budget turn overs.

Does that make any difference to the issue?
Its still a last minute requirement change.
That fact remains, no matter how logical the reason might be.

Which is why I won't argue with anyone who brings this up.

As a worker, its not our problem when the company is in the mess that its in.
Its the company's own problem.
Its a management issue.
So how does management deal with this?
It does it by changing tactic.
To address micro issues more and slowly moving all available resources to accomodate the macro need.

For example, funds needs to be accumulated in order to maintain long term survivorbility.
Gathering adhoc projects which pays a large sum of money will meet this requirement.
We now have 4 of them.
3 of them websites and one is CTS based.

This is what GMAB is.
A financial tie-over for us to gather more resources for the larger picture.

Whats the larger picture?
CTS of course.

In the world that I like to live in,
everything can be well planned and slowly delivered.
And I still believe that its something that I will eventualy do.

But until then?

Until then, I will do whatever that I need to do to achieve what needs to be done.

青菜写 ... version 247

2009-02-26T11:39:00.000+08:00

YCH said he wanted to start a topic sharing exercise.
Though I will just pinch the idea and just used this topic for fun until he actually gets a proper topic for us to blog.

Its not too hard to write a blog if you know what you want to talk about.
But if you are just scribbling thoughts onto paper on in our case the cyberworld, its not as easy as it seems.

I always find that its simpler to first see the ending part in my mind and slowly work my way towards it.

For example, in this blog I am thinking of ending it with the phrase ... "Its a vege world". Thus this is the first thing that I do. I put in the phrase Its a Vege World as the last sentence of my blog.

Now how do I work myself towards that goal.

Well we can start by identifying some points that can be associated to the phrase.

Eg.
Nutrtions.
Vegemite.
Insanity.
Coma.

Now that we have the balloons ... lets tie them together.

----

When I first started working with World.Net, I weight around 90kg. Now my weight is slight above 80Kg. Does it mean that my nutritions have been lax? Or did I just just let myself go without consuming food.

I don't think so really. As you guys would have noticed, I tend to eat when I am either thinking or stress or angry. I order food upon food and eat. Plenty of restaurants make money out of me because of this habbit of mine. Maybe I should start eating vegemite instead. Its healthy and I don't get into trouble.

Or I could plea insanity. Insane due to the high stress level that we all go through. Coporeally loosing sense of all control hence me loosing weight instead of gaining it. But I don't think any judge will accept it. Nor do I think my wife would like her husband to be termed as terminally insane.

I might be walking around but I don't think I am awake. Its like a zombie coma that I have contracted. I am breathing but I am only almost alive. Letting so much stress pour itself onto me causes a lot of unseen fracture in the mind. And sometimes its just easier to cope by letting the cracks go unnotice.

So I live in a vegetable state where yet I am still able to walk around.

Its a vege world afterall.

---

And that my friends is how I blog.
Actually thats how I basically do everything.
I tend to always start with the end in mind.
For which a properly set goal can motivate a person to coordinate his/her effort in achieving something or creating something out from nothing at all.

I hope you enjoyed this.

Version 3.5 ...

2009-02-25T13:33:00.000+08:00

Been spending time every morning hiding in McD Ampang Point doing planning work.

Have this big blue book that I scribble everything that I know and drawing idiot proof balloon pics to make sense out of it.

Does it work?

Not sure, but it used to work when I was doing it as a Project Manager in my olden days.

I wish I was writng programming code instead.

But as of now, I am a "Progammer of People" ...
So I will have to use a whole new language ...
Better known as "ManagerTalk Ver3.5"

I think its based on Apples "Smalltalk" ... :P

Obvious and troublesome ...

2009-02-24T10:32:00.000+08:00

One will expect that planning and designing is a simple task of identifying a goal and then walk to it.

But that is seldom the case.

Even when a goal is identified, it is ever changing.
Shouldn't the goal be specific?
Yes and No.
Yes, the original goal is still there.
It is still the main focus of the current endeavour.
But another goal has surface after a while that will take the current goal further.
So a bigger plan is set in motion concurrently.

These kind of moving requirements are a bane to normal developers.
Because their thinking path keeps needing to evolve and change.
Hence me learning from experience that I need to plan very far ahead.

It not practical to limit our dreams to a small scale because it has no potential of growth. Even in extreme programming methology, it is adviced to be prepared for change.

Actually, its part of the thinking pattern that EVERYTHING CHANGES over time.

So its part of our job to adjust our mindset to this requirement.

Easier said than done.

Though people know that change is good, it does not always mean change is GOOD for them personally. Change is very hard once you gain momentum.

Yet change is required if we want to survive.

That is why I chose the line of computer developement.
Because change is an intricate part of our environment.
If we stay stagnant in our developement language, we become part of the past.
If we put our thinking in a fix time period, we don't create any application that will last the business.

There are of course exception but those are far and few in between.
I strive to keep ahead of these changes.
And its challenging.
I feel alive.
Tired, yes.
But Alive.
I won't be changing my decision soon ... :)

Thanks Ke Hau ...

2009-02-23T18:53:00.000+08:00

Ke hau has been picking up a lot of work from the Web Team bin.
Luckily his here to help ease me of all the SitePlus stress.

Need to focus on the CTS issues which is now bugging my braincells to no end.

Maybe if I can grow another head, I can put some of the thinking to it.

So yeah ... Thanks Ke Hau.
Please don't go on MC soon.

蜀漢無雙財主 ...

2009-02-12T15:00:00.000+08:00

Lik Chin's game of names.

Not a lot of people remember but I actually have Four Initials ... so how to play?

So I just took my Chinese Name instead ... and this is the outcome.

I have always known that I like the 3 Kingdoms best.
Now I am certain.

Lesson 3 ...

2009-01-15T18:01:00.000+08:00

Never let Kenson draw your picture ... :P

Farewell brother ... all the best.

Lesson 2 ...

2009-01-15T11:19:00.000+08:00

Always keep a diary and make sure you write in it.
Else when your boss asked you something and said it was another you can't tell him that it was what you wrote in your notes.

*Another friendly advice from 24Seven*

Lesson 1 ...

2009-01-12T13:39:00.000+08:00

All of us (males) have been staring at this since we first came into work here at WNS.
Its message is simple.
Know your limit.
Don't undershoot yourself.

Oh-Nine is at the door ...

2008-12-31T15:12:00.000+08:00

Every morning, I see her.
But I don't see her as well.
Been seeing her every day for the last 3+ years.
As the year comes to an end.
I look back again.
And find that there is a lot that I don't see that I should see.
Maybe 2009 will be a little different.
And my eyes would not wander too much.

Happy New Year my friends.
May it bring orgasms to everything you do.

Gushing through the snow ...

2008-12-16T16:02:00.000+08:00

You know christmas is around the corner when everywhere you go its fake snow and godzilla size elves.

Then there are the cute Mrs.Santa Claus.
It has always bugged me, but why should Santa be married?
He has no time for a wife in the north pole when he needs to create so many presents.
Plus, I can't imagine any woman who will live in a place which they don't have access to at least a TESCO or JAYA JUSCO within 15 minutes drive.

Thats why there is a Jusco in Seremban.
Woman folk's are making their husbands move to CITY so that they get to shop more.

Here is the special pic for the day.

It makes me look less fat, right?

Rain - Part 2

2008-12-12T14:14:00.000+08:00

This is what I get for being slow .... :P

New more ...

2008-12-10T19:40:00.001+08:00

Have had the discussion with the boss today.

Now I know more ...

How to say this ... ?

We have more work ...

and more hope ...

Some might not like it.

But for those who share my enthusiasm ...

well lets get moving ...

Daylight is being wasted ... :)

Still Sick ...

2008-12-09T13:34:00.000+08:00

Since I came back from the Team Building at Selesa Hill, I have been plague by sickness non-stop.

As of now, I am having severe flu and should be resting in bed.

But I am in the office, waiting for Ernst to come in so that I can have a discussion with him about this trip in UK and what are the issues that the clients have with us currently.

My head is spinning and my nose is stuck.

I feel like a bi-plane with its damn rotor cloged with goose feathers while flying over the Atlantic Ocean.

Time shows ...

2008-12-05T13:34:00.000+08:00

Ate at KFC today with Ke Hau.

And saw this old man eating with his grandchildren.

Have always wanted to take candid shots of old people.

So this time I did.

its ok ...

2008-12-04T18:44:00.000+08:00

Yesterday when I was going home I was not feeling too well.

Both physically and spiritually.

Anger was boiling deep down in my heart and I could not extinguish it.

But I was saved.

My wife saved me again.

She reminded me of what I promised.

So its ok ...

Its the end of a year.

And its a begining of a new one.

Have to set my eyes on whats important.

Thank you my beloved.

You are the reason why I am not a mass murderer.

Whats in a laugh ...

2008-12-03T18:59:00.001+08:00

I have sensitive skin.
I also have a very sensitive heart.

Thats why I know I will most probably die of heart issues or rot to death.

That aside I know I am also a hard person to get along because of my attitude and the way I speak.

Not just the words or tone that I use, but also the facial expressions while I am talking.

Its just bloody annoying.

Which is why I learned how to laugh at myself.

Its not as easy as it seems.

It plenty simple if you are laughing at other peoples plight.

But when the jokes on ourselves, then its mighthy hard to even squeek properly.

I know several people that can do this well.

One of then is Yong.

Another is Johnny.

They take their punches as good as they dish it out.

Being able to laugh at our own stupidity as well as heartaches helps us accept the circumstances of our own lives.

Me included.

I never thought much about it for a long time now, until I saw the final company video of our recent trip. Its full of funny moments and redicolous antiques. It brings laughter to people and thats important.

So thanks Yong, Johnny and Kenson for making us smile.

I am glad that I am able to contribute some of it as well ... :)

Journey Home ...

2008-12-02T14:07:00.000+08:00

Was standing beside some "mothers" while going back home yesteday.

The entire journey was about their kids and how to get them to eat fruits.

Life is just more interesting when you come up with how to slice apple in 26 different ways.

Lemon Garden Cafe ...

2008-12-01T15:35:00.001+08:00

Had high tea at Lemon Garden Cafe few days back.
Nice environment.
Casual music.
Fabulous food.

Here is one of the many pics that I took there.
Might post more soon.

Oh ... what the heck ... here is another one.

Rain ...

2008-11-27T17:33:00.000+08:00

Have always liked to take pictures via odd positions or angles.
It gives a different perspective on what we usually see.

A gift for you ...

2008-11-26T16:16:00.000+08:00

Now that I have a theme ... its easier to do a posting.

Here is something that I took while telling Yong how to capture close angle stuffs.

Camera photography...

2008-11-25T18:24:00.001+08:00

I think I found what I am going to theme this blog as.

I like taking pictures from my phone.

I actually spent my entire trip in Hong Kong taking pictures using my phone.
The final count during that trip was 895 pics within 4 days.
Roughly 200 pics per day and thats with me deleting pics that I know that I don't like.

Camera photography is not just about skill but understanding your machine.

She won't take any kind of pics nicely but she will take some of them perfectly.

So yeah.

Here is something to wet your appetite.

Tommorow ...

2008-11-17T15:13:00.000+08:00

A dream is something that drives motivation.
To me at least.

Its something that I use to visualize on what I leave behind when I die.

I have no doubt that I am mortal.
That death is eventual and I will succumb to the sands to time when my turn comes.
So death is not something that I question.

I question life instead.

I question what I can and should do.

I read in the back of a T-Shirt yesterday when I came back from the team-building trip that said "Its not enough to just stay alive, but to be ALIVE as well"

Notice the capitalization of the words "alive"?

It addresses a different aspect of the same word.

One is a noun.
The other is a verb.

Staying alive is a noun, a descriptive state within one's passage in time.

To be Alive is a verb, an action to which we fill up the container that we call our life.

What we fill into that container defines the legend that we will become.

We come into this world with nothing.

And we will leave this world with nothing.

All that is left to mark our existence is the things that we do or help create.

Some leave their children as their legacy.

Some leave their empires as their legend.

I wish to leave something different.

I want to leave hope in the hearts of those that I touch everyday.

I never really cared if people remember me personally.
Names are nothing more than something people put on paper that the future seldom remembers anyway.
No.
I am not vain enough to imagine that people want to even remember me.
Which is why I do things the way that I do them now.
I train.
I teach.
I share.
And what was mine become theirs.
At the end, in a very small way, I live on through them.

To me, that it what it means to be alive.
That is what I call life.

Hell(o) ...

2008-11-12T12:58:00.001+08:00

More often than not, mistakes are made by us because we made a wrong assumption.

To compound the issue, we another assumption on top of the first assumption we make.

By the time that line of thinking come to a stop. we would have concluded that me sneezing in malaysia caused the ozone depreciation in Australia, Alaska and the African continent.

You might think that I am talking absurbly here but the fact of the matter is we do this every day.

How many times have I gone home to my loving wife only to see her sulking in a corner?
How many times have I asked her whats wrong?
How many times have I heard her saying that I don't love her anymore?
And how many times have I said inside my head "What? Not again!"

Its not just my wife.

It applies to my friends and colleagues as well.

They hear some rumours and they react to it.

Its basic nature to 99.99% of the human population.

Its hard to not do it.

Because we believe everything that we see and hear without doubt.
And why should it we doubt it, its what right infront of our eyes, right?

Well, because I am always in a situation where people misunderstand my intentions, I understand first hand that things aren't always what they seem to be.
So I tend to be careful when I form opinions.
The habit was forced upon me (I had no say in it) and I grew attached to it.

It takes a lot effort to stop ourselves from thinking ourself into a shit hole.
And surpringly not a lot of people wants to stop doing it either.

Tears in Heaven ...

2008-11-12T09:48:00.000+08:00

I have always love the accoustic on this song.
But the kid's take on it is really much different from what I am used to.

Go Jung!!!

Something about being a manger...

2008-11-10T14:22:00.001+08:00

Was in a luncheon few days back where someone accused me of being a "Manager".

That means, I don't understand the pain my people go through.

I am so far up ther that "hey, I am god" complex comes into play and who gives a rat's ass about those so far down the food chain.

Most of the time that might be through in a big strong company.

But in a company such as mine, its somewhat stupid to even think like that let alone behave in that manner.

I want to trust my friends and colleagues to do what is right for them and the whole.

I want to allow them the dignity to proof to themselves and the whole world that they are at the best there is to give.

But at the end, its all about me and what I want.

Not about them after all.

They don't want to be great.

They don't want to be the best they can be.

They don't dream of being better.

They just want to live their simple life as a peon and die happpily never knowing their full potential.

And thats not wrong.

Its just different from that which I wish for them.

Its like a parent that want to see their children be better than they are now.

Do you ever want to see your child suffer?

If they can do better, do you not push them harder so that they can achieve it?

Of course we do.

But is it the right thing to do?

Is that what they want?

I know its what I want.

And thats the problem isn't it.

Will I stop?

I don't think so, but I am going to make it clear to them that its their choice, the same as it is mine to be pushy so that they can become a moon above instead of its reflection on the pond.

Two Four Seven

2008-11-07T10:54:00.000+08:00

These are the numbers which means something to me.

It has been following me for a long time and I see them as part of my souls definition.

As a christian, that is something that is can almost be branded as blasphemy.

But to me its not a belief system nor an icon.

Its a part of a my life that I see as constant and meaningful.

So here is me signing in.

24Seven.

Thats me.